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Name: Hannah Rose
Location: Pennsylvania, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Music, Led Zeppelin, photography and culinary. I love candles, babies, morning walks, making lists, myspace, my friends, sitting around, and stuff
Expertise: Well I try to be good at photography. I'm working on cooking. I'm also good at telling how people feel by their body language and reactions and stuff.
Occupation: College Student
Industry: nursing
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  pixiedust641
Member Since:
4/5/2006
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| well it's April and the weather has been soo good lately. Rik got the kids on easter and they are here for a week. I love his kids, but I'm still getting use to dating someone with kids. Its hard for me at times. I'm used to the attention I get from him and I always feel like i'm his number one prority when they arent around. And then when theyre here, I have to realize they are also his priority, if not MORE of a priority. Sometimes my mood just changes soo quick and I wont even know exactly why. Like last night he came over after work but he didnt want to stay too long so that he could get some sleep so that when the kids get up, he can spend time with them until he goes to work. Which is fine. But when it came time for him to leave, he was like, 'well, i have to get back to my kids'. and i got upset. I know he has to get back to his kids but the fact that he said it like that hurt me for some reason. And what if he had his own place and his parents werent watching them? I guess then I would go there, but..he has them for most of the summer. Hopefully by then I will stop beingso gay about all this. I am very upset at myself for getting like that. I also feel like if we lived together when he has them, I wouldnt get like this so much. Because then I would feel more involved. I mean, he includes me in stuff now and thats good. It makes me feel better. and Livvy likes me. I got upset today on the phone with Rik and then Livvy wanted to talk to me. Just talking to her for a few minutes made me feel better. I was glad she actually wanted to talk to me and tell me about her bubbles and how she was going to go outside and play with them. Rik thinks I'm making this worse than it is, as usual. and I may be, but I wish he understood more. I'm feeling better now that I talked to him more about it and I'm realizing I am kind of blowing it out of proportion. Anyway, this month with make 6 months we've been together! yayy! I really want to marry this man and have his babies! I love him so incredibly much. I'm at school now trying to pass the time until my next class. it's soo hot out right now and it feels like none of the buildings have air conditioning on. I'm going to get up kinda early tomorrow and go to Rik's and hang out with him and the kids until class. He is taking a personal day on Friday to spend some time with them. I have to work 1-6 but i want to see if i can get an earlier shift so I can hang with them earlier in the day. I want to go to the park with them at some point. I would like to do that on Friday if I can switch shifts. then I work 3-10 on Saturday. Then he takes them back Sunday. I probably work but he said if I dont work, he would like if I came with him to take the kids back. I just dont think I want to meet her though. Not yet, anyway. She pregnant and due in like August. He has his divorce papers now and has an appointment to go over them with a lawyer next monday. Then after he signs them, it will soon be final! Yayy!! That makes me happy. And he got his car fixed yesterday, so that made him happy too. When he's happy with the way things are going, it makes me very happy too. I havent been to Rita's yet! I've been wanting to go! I'm pretty upset Jess is transferring to the danville store very soon. I will have no one to talk to at work then. Oh yea, Kristen is pregnant! I couldnt believe it when she told me! Then I thought I was for a minute and we though it would be soo cool if we were pregnant at the same time.ha. Well I let Rik come inside of me now. It's more passionate that way, but it is also more of a risk, even though I am on the pill. We said we arent going to make a habit of it, but we'll see haha. Good thing no one reads my weblog entries. They are all TMI! haha ok I'm going to find something else to do now.
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| I am in love a with a man named Rik Acor. I met him on October 23rd through Mike Renner's brother. We originally hooked up when we were drunk one night at good old days and I didnt think anything much would happen after that, but he really showed interest and I've been dating him ever since. He is the best boyfriend. I know its kinda soon to say I love you, but I love him and I couldnt ask for a better man. He's 28 and went to millville. I really like his family too. Abbey knows his brother Dan from theatre. He's cute. He was married. Well, unfortunately he still is technically, but theyve been split up for over 2 years. He has 2 kids. I havent met them yet. We spent Thanksgiving at each others houses. Hes very nice and everyone seems to like him. I cant wait to see what the future holds. He says hes looking for some ring for me for christmas. I'm excited to see what hes talking about. Ian is retarded and imed me and was like oh so you finally got a boyfriend. wtf asshole. Apparently hes dating emily warren. Oh, good luck with that buddy. Shes lives in pa and you live in nd. OK! idiot. Hes coming home in Feb and idk if he plans on coming here, but i dont want to see him. Abbey and Jason broke up in September and now shes dating Andrew Hughes. Lydia just started dating this kid Isaac. Jason claims to be dating Holly, but whatever hes gay. I need to go now but I would like to continue updating since I havent been on since June! | | |
| Why did I work myself up so much about Ian. The first day he came home, he just showed up at my house without letting me know he was coming. I hadnt got a shower yet and I was in my bathing suit and all greasy and sweaty. So I looked good! Then he went off somewhere with sam and tim without me and i got upset of course and started crying. Then he went to nanees without me so i drove down there and was still being a pissy bitch. Then we all came back to my house and just hung around. He said he knows that im being this way because i still have feelings for him. Wow I cant believe he said that and im like um no u just piss me off. Then he left and the next day was friday. He came over and pretty much completely ignored me and hung out with my whole family. I wasnt about to just follow him around like a puppy dog so i was doing my own thing, hoping he would come around. Well he didnt and i had had enough so we talked about it at the end of the night. It didnt help that we were both drunk and we ended up fighting about everything. Then he was going to start walking to his moms and i told him to wait cause i wasnt done talking. But he left anyway and i followed him but then i lost him so i called him and hes like dont follow me and im like well you didnt wait like i asked you to! Then he hung up on me and i was all the way down 4th street by myself at 1 AM. He wouldnt answer his phone then and so i texted him and asked if he could just stay on the phone with my until i got home cause i was scared. Nope, he didnt call or text back and still wouldnt answer the phone. He said its not his fault that i left my house when he told me to stay. So i walked back home by myself. When i got home I cried the hardest i think ive ever cried. Then he came into weis the next morning and i just ignored him. His truck was gone from my house before 6 AM and he was still in the same clothes. He told abbey he "fell asleep somewhere". I have no idea what happened. So I stopped talkin to him hoping he would get ahold of me. Finally he did, a few days later, but he was drunk and texting me these stupid things so i just called him and he was like where did you go? why havent you been texting me? and all this shit. I was at nanees so he wanted to come over. He was going to but then he said well im just gonna go to bed. So then over that week we texted a few times and then all of a sudden i wasnt hearing from him again. I worked alot so there wouldnt have been much time to hang out anyway but i invited him up a few times and told him if he wanted to get together when i got out of work, to let me know. Well wouldnt you know i didnt hear anything back and he always had plans when i asked him to stop up before i went to work. A few days went by and he finally called me and told me he wasnt ignoring me, he was juts busy with helping his mom move. He said we should do something sunday or monday. So of course, like an idiot, i clear my schedule for sunday and then never hear from him. Finally monday came and i went to his myspace and saw that he put a pic of him and his ex on and his whole about me section is about how he screwed up as a husband and how he wishes he could do it over. he obviously did this so i would see it, so i texted him and said: goodbye. i wish u all the best in life. He texted back :huh? and then: and whats your deal? But i ignored both of them. If he cared that much, he would call or show up at my house or something. I didnt hear from him at all yesterday. I knew he didnt care at all about me, so whatever. Then why did he text me before he came hom and act like he wanted to hang out with me? All he did was ignore me while he was here. Maybe we were confused at first about how to act around each other but i asked him about that and of course he was like um im not confused about anything. Hes always making me feel/look like an ass. I feel relieved that i dont have to sit around waiting for him to text me. I'm not gonna sit around and clear my schedule and prepare for him to come over, when its not gonna happen. I told him i thought maybe we could be sort of togther while he was home and then when he left it would go back to how it was (us not talking) but he said absolutely not. Also he says he wont talk about his wife to anyone because its all in his heart and he doesnt talk to anyone about it. Fuckin idiot. I cant believe i wasted my time getting excited and preparing for him to come home, thinking we were going to spend almost every day together. I lost weight partly for him, i shaved lol i got condoms, and i was going to skip my period week in my pill pack for him. Glad i didnt. And there were so many other things i did or had in mind. I'm a big idiot. Why did i have expectations like that? fuck i hate him. I just never learn my lesson! wtfff after all hes done to me and i still was putting up with him when he came home and treated me like shit. Well hes home til june15 and i leave for assateague the 11th so i doubt ill hear from him, but whatever. Scott will not be my manager anymore at the end of this week. Hes getting moved. Im so sad about that. He doesnt want to go but theyre making him. My bday is coming up and im excited. Shane said hes gonna buy me a drink. i hope so cause i want to see him outside of work. I want him haha. ok well im sick of typing but i had to get the ian thing off my chest. | | |
| IIIIIII can't wait for Ian to be home. a few more weeks :) I shouldnt work myself up though. I cant wait for this week to be over cause i have a crapload of things to do for school. I just cant wait for this semester to be over. Block party was this past weekend. I only went for a little bit and it was gay! SO then me and shannon went to melanies and there was a car crash near the house. No one was found in the car, so shannon and i went in the house and locked the doors. I looked out the back window and saw the guy walking through the yard!! The police came, but they couldnt find him. They were still looking for him last time i heard. It was a stolen van too. Idiot. Anyway at block party i was with marci and alissa and katura and a bunch of other people I didnt care for. Sooo I left cause everyone ignores me and i felt like a big idiot. I cant wait to be 21! and for the beach. I bet marci wont be able to go witih us :( pooo. She lost her phone during block party hahaha but she got it back. I dont knwo what else to say and i'm typing really fast cause i want to go home, so thats why there are so many spelling mistakes. Alright bye | | |
| bryant sent me pics of his dick and i showed some people at work and he found out and got mad but now we're ok and here i thought he sent them to me because he liked me and only me, and i kind of started to like him too but then i found out he sent some to jenny too and she and i both sent him pics of ourselves! omgg he pisses me off. Oh yea, im really dumb and met up with that ray guy at the park. we started doing stuff and i told him i didnt want to have sex with him, but one thing led to another and we had sex at the park. The thing that pisses me off the most is that he didnt wear a condom. Now i have to go get an internal and i want to be tested for everything. James was suppose to come over friday but he got sick. i he asked me to hang out saturday but i worked. I dont talk to rob anymore, obviously. But something insane happened the other day. I got a random text from ian while i was in class. he said hes coming home in may and wants to see me. so i dont really know how im suppose to feel, but i am really excited! i mean, i dont expect us to get back together or anything and i dont know what his intentions are, but im really excited to see him after like 2 1/2 years. i keep thinking about it. I'm so upset i had sex with that guy omggg i hate him hes such a skank and he keeps trying to get ahold of me and i keep ignoring him. ok thats all i can think of. | | |
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